Saturday a bit of an emotional one

First here he is 

Next Oy

So feeding has had some hiccups.  I developed some bad habits because I had the IV in me and was sore so I accommodated that when breast feeding.  The result - sore torn nipples.  Yes it's as bad as it sounds.

So I got some help and it started to get better.  But then I found out he's loosing too much weight and the recommendation is to supplement.

I cried and this was after midnight.  The plan became I will feed him regularly and then pump and feed him that.

My milk is coming in so that helps keep away the supplement.

We've done 3 feedings and pumping.  It's been okay.  But this afternoon I found out he's still loosing a bit of weight.  Again because my milk is coming we can hold off supplementation.

Hormones are all over the map and Bingo and I are figuring out how to feed him so it's been a rough day.

But I'm resting w him now.  I should be sleeping  but I will start that routine tomorrow when I get home.

And for folks who see me please be mindful I just had a baby and don't need your personal issues brought to my attention or to be dealt w now.

 Give me a break - I can't do you favors, I can't hear you out about how I should let toxic people in my life because you think it's better for the toxic person.  This is about me taking care of me and Bingo - NOT ANYONE ELSE.